Monday, September 27, 2010

metamorphosis / in the "mean" time


indeed this has been a strange summer (now fall)... and it has taken me about that much time to understand why. like a caterpillar in cocoon - i have found myself smack dab in the middle of transition - change - and some days, purgatory.
basically it comes down to the fact that i got married, completed my first book illustration commission, and bought a house in portland, oregon... all exciting and positive stuff, but for a sensitive introspective this means lots of time has been spent brooding over the implications of it all, questioning, reasoning, and brooding some more in a state of despondency... oh yeah, and all that "stuff" i've achieved took a fair share of time and energy as well. before you peace out on my pity party, let me just say - i fully know that i am being weird. also, i fully know that i do the tortured artist bit quite well.
so here i am: physically in upstate new york, with the good half of my brain in portland, a quarter of it brooding in my syracuse living room, and the other quarter? well i lost it a while ago, hopefully it turns up when packing.
frank o'hara sums up my sentiment perfectly with:
"I am quietly waiting for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again,
and interesting,
and modern."


{e.cohh hoelzer, 2006 "lost & found" - a piece i made in college with the pictures i took: west coast of the left and the east coast on the right}
so i guess this is my apologia of sorts explaining why i have been the worst blogger ever. but i'm not apologizing - i've just been dealing with things and haven't felt the urge to blog. sorta sad, but i have to stop being hard on myself at some point. why not start here?
it looks like i'll be stuck in transition-land for the next 2 months until i get to finally inhabit said portland home. in the meantime i'll be taking the next 2 weeks to gallivant through the adirondacks and white mountain range. because: my soul needs nature, like whoa.
after that, major home repairs from afar, move prep and wrapping up a website...yeah, i've decided to start taking my art and myself more seriously...but not too seriously, after all that leads to more brooding....

thanks for bearing with me (all 22 of you) ha!

peace,
cobb

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