Tuesday, May 3, 2011

big time: updates, explanations, & where do we go from here?

not going to lie: this blog has been like the red-headed-bastard-step-child of my life lately. You know what though? I don't even feel bad about it so there's no use for apologies. To put it mildly, I have had some major life changes and I just haven't had the capacity to post sketches and write witty verses. Culling inspiration from a life in complete upheaval felt forced and made me far to introspective, you know? Once I began to hold an evil grudge against my blog, I pressed pause. It has been so very nice to simply unplug. Happy to report: I am doing just dandy. So here's the brief on the goings on since October:

step 1: packed up all my belongings in upstate New York and schlepped it across the country (again) to Portland, OR

step 2: bought, moved into, and am fixing up a sweet 'lil 1938 cottage in the South Mount Tabor Neighborhood of SE Portland.

it's odd to see something that took 6+ month to "accomplish" squished into one sentence...this has been huge and will be a neverending project. welcome to home ownership... totally worth it though. also, is it healthy to have a love affair with a city? i don't care if not, i'll scream it from the roof tops: I LOVE MY NEW-OLD CITY, I LOVE MY NEW-OLD HOUSE, I LOVE my neighbors - all the people of Portland. y'all will just bury me in my backyard - i'm never leavin' this patch.

step 3: made a website for my design and illustration work!!! f.i.n.a.l.l.y... check it: www.cobbhoelzer.com

step 4-ish: changed my name. this one deserves some explanation. ok, so i got married and surprised myself by taking my husband's last name. i always considered myself a post-feminist gal, but i felt changed through the whole wedding process and really wanted to share a family name with the love of my life (this sounds cheesy because love is, deal). other 3 reasons i took the last name Hoelzer:
1. it means "people of the woods" which is sweet.
2. it re-connects me to my Germanic roots.
3. it has a "z" and the original spelling has an umlaut as in, Hӧlzer. 'nuff said.
ok, but then i didn't want to loose the "Cobb" part of my name. a lot of people just call me "Cobb" from my athletic days of yore and because of the super popularity of "Emily". seriously, in college i had around 10 friends named Emily and things would be too confusing if we didn't go by last names only...
oh and also i really dislike the whole hyphenated last name business. it looks awkward on the back of jerseys, business cards, name tags, etc. SO after hashing out my name dilemma with a friend, it was brilliantly suggested that i go by "Cobb Hoelzer" or "E. Cobb
Hӧlzer" professionally. i like this. artists need memorable names. another cool thing: "Cobb" is gender neutral... can't even began to describe how differently i am treated when there is ambiguity. people totally take you more seriously when they think you are a dude... i know it's messed up but there it is. sorry feminists.

so now we arrive at "where do we go from here?" the short answer: I don't know, still figuring it out. To be honest, I'm kinda over blogging. For the moment at least. After many months of soul searching I have realized life is short, time is limited, and it's important for me to spend it wisely. Right now I am too busy putting down my roots and expanding my portfolio. { p.s. exciting things are happening with Me and Bobby McGee! aaand more design gigs are steadily arriving on my plate } Taking time to put together posts and then having to network on the blogosphere is too draining and isn't really my talent anyway. I mean, I hardly generated a blip with this blog anyway so ending it is really not a travesty to humanity; blogging getting in the way of my art would be. Maybe within the year I'll start again, perhaps with an easy, less time consuming platform. (Blogger: you make me want to pull out my hair sometimes) Any suggestions? It would be super awesome to post from my iphone to minimize computer screen slavery, I mean, time. How 'bout tumblr? flickr? God forbid "twatter"... ideas are helpful from those of you more technologically prone.

in conclusion, life is good! I am busy making things again. Please check out my website to stay updated if you are so inclined. For now "emily's eye" will remain a time capsule/journal from my 2009 & 2010 life. In the meantime you can post questions and comments here or shot me an email. i heart feedback.

peace out, be well & live free!!!

Monday, October 11, 2010

sneak peak: me & bobby mcgee

so here's the story:
i have a wonderfully zany friend from the high school days of yore, known then as megan blen. flash forward several years: megan now has an equally wonderful & zany husband, chad coenson.
chad happens to have an incredible knack for prose and story telling and thus, wrote a novel (among many other things).

over a year ago he asked me to do some illustrations for the piece and after many, many months of procrastination i finally did so. in the meantime, chad found a publisher for the book which has since kicked this "side project" into high gear. and no, this is not a children's book... in fact, it is quite the opposite: best described as a social satire-thriller. ladies and gents, may i introduce to you the stupendous, mystifying, and slightly offensive:
Me & Bobby Mcgee
written by Chad Coenson with illustrations by yours truly: E. Cobb Hölzer (more on the name change later).

this book is available for purchase right now (!) via a couple "small scale" sellers... not sure if you've heard of barnes & noble or amazon, but yeah you can get your very own copy there. i hear the book makes a great stocking stuffer. (wink, wink, nudge, nudge.)
to entice you further, here are the finished illustrations available for your viewing pleasure:

the small viewing scale really doesn't do the drawings justice. in the coming months there will be large scale prints available for purchase as well. i will keep y'all posted!

{please keep in mind that these illustrations are under copyright, with a big ol' © if you would like to post them, copy them, etc, please ask me: cobbhoelzer@gmail.com. reproduction with out permission is not only illegal, but rude... and karma will curse you in the worst way.}

Monday, September 27, 2010

metamorphosis / in the "mean" time

indeed this has been a strange summer (now fall)... and it has taken me about that much time to understand why. like a caterpillar in cocoon - i have found myself smack dab in the middle of transition - change - and some days, purgatory.
basically it comes down to the fact that i got married, completed my first book illustration commission, and bought a house in portland, oregon... all exciting and positive stuff, but for a sensitive introspective this means lots of time has been spent brooding over the implications of it all, questioning, reasoning, and brooding some more in a state of despondency... oh yeah, and all that "stuff" i've achieved took a fair share of time and energy as well. before you peace out on my pity party, let me just say - i fully know that i am being weird. also, i fully know that i do the tortured artist bit quite well.
so here i am: physically in upstate new york, with the good half of my brain in portland, a quarter of it brooding in my syracuse living room, and the other quarter? well i lost it a while ago, hopefully it turns up when packing.
frank o'hara sums up my sentiment perfectly with:
"I am quietly waiting for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again,
and interesting,
and modern."

{e.cohh hoelzer, 2006 "lost & found" - a piece i made in college with the pictures i took: west coast of the left and the east coast on the right}
so i guess this is my apologia of sorts explaining why i have been the worst blogger ever. but i'm not apologizing - i've just been dealing with things and haven't felt the urge to blog. sorta sad, but i have to stop being hard on myself at some point. why not start here?
it looks like i'll be stuck in transition-land for the next 2 months until i get to finally inhabit said portland home. in the meantime i'll be taking the next 2 weeks to gallivant through the adirondacks and white mountain range. because: my soul needs nature, like whoa.
after that, major home repairs from afar, move prep and wrapping up a website...yeah, i've decided to start taking my art and myself more seriously...but not too seriously, after all that leads to more brooding....

thanks for bearing with me (all 22 of you) ha!


Friday, September 10, 2010

on real estate...

bah, this house hunting thing is starting to get to me. i'm ready to be done with it. i never thought it would be this consuming... of time and emotion. (even in a buyers market.)

plus the whole idea of being locked into a place for an extended period of time scares the nomad within.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

something different

came across the vid today - thought i'd pass it along since it's pretty nifty...

SURFACE TRAILER from Silo1 on Vimeo.

i imagine the big bang to have looked something like this.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

two things for revitalization...

or the mind:

.... french press coffee
and for the spirit:

...a walk around green lakes
{complete with an "illegal" dip in it's soothing teal waters - of which i partook in yesterday.}

much better now.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

change a comin'

upon returning to upstate new york i was greeted by oppressive humidity and tie-dyed trees. hello september!

being on the road makes me reflective.... lately, i feel change all around. for me, these speckled trees seem to signify more than a change in seasons.... ah yes, change. i'm looking forward to it.

life update:
{ the weekend in portland proved to be most productive; in that, i am positive a move there is one of the best things i'll ever do. as for a house.... lots of options, but no definite keepers yet. for now, we play the waiting game. might as well soak up all the beauty upstate has to offer in the meantime!}

Thursday, August 26, 2010

gone huntin'.....

gunna catch me a house!

i've officially served my time in upstate ny...

for the next 5 days: scoutin' and (with luck) stakin' a claim. come december i'll be making my grand exodus* to the port of the lands.
after all, the new york times told me to do it...

* ex-o-dus |ˈeksədəs| : movement of jah people.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010


today, two titillating t's: tombstones & tomatoes. (say it out loud, i promise it's fun).
yes, two very random associations. here's the best explanation i can offer:

1. spent last weekend in boston and discovered the awesomeness of old tombstone engravings...

2. it's tomato season, clearly:

a whole summer's worth of sunshine stored up in these sacks, heavy with delight... such a gift.

well there you have it. tombstones & tomatoes: two things that thrill me of late...

Friday, August 13, 2010

i'm thankful for...

my hands.

without these precious tools i wouldn't be able to the many things i love.